Sunday, December 9, 2012

Simba says hello

Dylan said happy birthday

Monday, December 3, 2012

cayenne fudge

http://redmommycrafts.blogspot.com/2008/10/cayenne-pepper-fudge.html



1 tsp. cayenne pepper

1. Make base fudge recipe and add cayenne pepper after marshmallow fluff.

This base recipe is the key to making any flavored fudge.

"Base" Fudge

2 1/2 c. sugar
1/2 cup real butter
2/3 c evaporated milk*
7 oz. marshmallow fluff
12 oz. chocolate chips**
1 tsp vanilla

1. Before you start, open all packages and line a 9x13 pan with wax paper.
2. Stir together sugar, milk, and butter in a medium sauce pan.
3. Cook over medium high heat (I use 7). When mixture begins to boil, boil for 5 minutes. Make sure to stir occasionally to prevent scorching and sticking.
4. After 5 minutes boiling time, turn heat off and add fluff. Stir, stir, and stir.
5. Add chocolate chips and stir until melted.
6. Pour into pan and let cool.

As a tip: I cut fudge as soon as it is completely set. I then will put it in the fridge to chill it. After it is cold, I lift it out of the pan by the wax paper and run the knife over the slices again. They should now peel right off the paper without sticking of falling apart.


Another tip: If your fudge gets hard from being exposed to the air, put it in a metal tin with a lid. It will soften back up and still taste great!

* A 12oz. can of evaporated milk will make 2 batches of fudge.
** Might be substituted in making different flavored fudge.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Gobbles!!!

Hope you had a happy thanksgiving. that's all.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Growl

I don't growl much anymore. I get tired, I take a nap. I had a good nap this afternoon. I happened to have a good appointment this morning. Still confused as can be and not sure who to trust exactly. Cest' la vie, I suppose. I don't know French. [growl]

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

From time to time...

Occasionally it is better to go it alone to build self esteem, to know you can stand on your own two feet or catch your breath. Most of the time it is better to stay closely connected to the people around you, those you love and need and those who love and need you. There is a time and place for both. Communication is key. Keep talking.

Bones

Emily is really kind of hot. I love women. There's only one woman for me though. I don't need a top ten list a la "Friends". I'd treat it like a bucket list.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Somebody Keeps Me Very Interested

She likes to keep secrets and keep me at arms length. I try not to bother her. I know she stays busy. I am having trouble doing all the things I want to do everyday. It is quite frustrating but life happens sometimes and I want to break free of some of it. Family is important but my priorities have to fit in somewhere. I will have the days I need I'm sure. I hope I'm up to the challenges that I'm facing. I have confidence in them and know I can succeed. Today we talked. PG-14...

Saturday, November 17, 2012

What's your dog's name?

I am taking my sister's dog for a walk after I write this. She is called Roxie. She's a bichon-poo. She sure takes her sweet time to take a crap. We're gonna sit at the park for a little while on this nice Saturday afternoon. ;)

l8r,
cj

debt

I'm indebted to you. I'm behind on my 'payments'. I've got a lot of catching up to do. I've got a lot of organization to work on. I have a lot of rehearsal to do. I've got routines to plan and follow. I've got needs and I have wants. I desire a better life. I wrote a song that needs chords called, "With You".

l8r
cj

life

Finances, budgeting, taxes, politics, real estate, personal property, business expenses, filings, legal documents, family, personal relationships, marriage, children, charity, health and wellness... Whoo-man! Sounds overwhelming but sounds like it could be very satisfying. Lots to think about. Read what you sign. I do.

Friday, November 16, 2012

ignore me much?

Taking advantage of my low profile. Attending some online classes. Don't even know if I'll earn any credit. I hope I do. I think I'm funny enough to be voted class clown.

I've got nothing

Does she? Is she? Will she? She & I? Who knows. Will I? Can I? Am I? I know...
I have a point, or perhaps I should say a goal in mind. I'm saving up my skeeball tickets for the big prize. Is it a surprise? Lots of skill, it takes, as Yoda might say. No comments though... Curious. Anonymity is easy to feign. AIs are smarter than they used to be and more capable. Wishful thinking? Perhaps but I still have a goal... Damn it!

L8r,
cj

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Everyday

I have a new friend. It's nice to know someone who is both smart and funny. We have a lot of things in common and are on the same wavelength most of the time. It's pretty extraordinary and kind of exciting. Perhaps that's an understatement. Would you marry a millionaire? I don't know if I'd like to that much. ;)

For the Soccer Mom...

From Chris Johnson's Blogspot
Click to view larger image...

l8r,
cj

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

love me or leave me alone

If you have doubts let me know what they are. Tell the truth. Don't cheat me out of the goal, the real dream. Don't leave me with half truths or partial dreams.

12 years

J.
If it's truly been twelve years then I don't understand exactly why you would want to put it off any longer when it's clear that we are better together. If you need time give me a time frame that's accurate but don't keep me in the dark stumbling around trying to find my way. I'm a people-pleaser if you'd give me a shot but let me know definitively on a real and personal level that I'm not being lead on. 12 years of mistakes and loneliness is enough for me. 12 years of settling for other people and other things. No words can express it and I know you feel the same. Action is love. But the single life is no longer viable for me if I've had a taste of the truth to come. I need daily affirmation from you, not just from family, friends or myself. I'm no good by myself. Give me a break. Break free or leave me be. Reveal the prestige. Work with me in a real way not a virtual way. I need human contact to know it's for real. Call me. You have resources... Use them, set me free. You free me.
I'm a slave to myself. Teamwork works. I've got your back if you have mine which I know you do. I, again, know what I've signed and I need a real sign that it's true.

l8r,
cj

Who is you?

Somebody Keeps Me Very Interested but pisses me off a little bit. I am polite but feel like I'm being severely jacked with. The trouble I have with it is I know what I've signed and I feel taken advantage of. I would not have signed away my rights if I had known the extent of all of this. I expect to be paid. I expect to be loved. I'm not in it for some grand standing showboating. I'm in it for love and money is very important to me and my would be mrs. Who is she? Is she even available? I think she is but how should I effing know for sure. She doesn't call. She just plays foolish games and messes with my phone and computer. I'm not down and out, I'm just saying. Who expects me to stand when I'm lacking the motivation to know the truth. I don't want no god-damned bait and switch. I'm a carnivore and I want the cricket on the hook. I expect to be let go to return to my family. Does that make any effing sense to anyone listening. Yah, I'm pissed. Should I be grateful and just take my meds. Should I drink the tainted water? Kool, I have aides. Big deal. I'm not a loser. I deserve to be able to do my job and be me but with her I am more me. Is that her job? Who the hell knows but Steven, I've got issues with you right now. You to babe.

And you're response is of course, 'prove it'. How fucking convenient. Liars and lawbreakers... there's legal and then what's right. I want my privacy. I want a wife who loves me and doesn't cheat. I don't want to be the other guy. I don't want to be step-dad. I know what that admission could mean. I am willing to love your child but if he has a dad then I can be a role model. But you have to be sure that you love me and not him. The ball's in your court so you contact me in the real world when you know what the hell you want. I'll be here, just don't make me wait too long. I had two years and you did nothing. What's the story there? Were you not keeping tabs? How was my roommate involved? Am I crazy? No, I think not.

Only the paranoid survive... --Bill Gates.

l8r,
cj

Today is a better day

I'm tired but inspired. I have a great friend who looks out for me. We make plans and I like the way we work together. I'd like to be able to work together on a more personal face to face manner but for now it's great!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Disappointment sets in?

Is it real and if so what does that really mean in the long-run? I've got to say God-damn the people who don't hear. I know you hear but you seem to ignore. Are you shy? Are you ashamed? Is it a tease? I don't care, not today. I mean I always care, it just seems like today it doesn't matter if I care or not. It seems out of reach and pointless. But I still believe. I still feel we are worth it. I'm afraid I'm the only one to care and not the only one too. What does it mean? Perhaps only time will tell but it doesn't seem like time is speeding up to me, it seems like it's going at a snails pace. I hurt with sadness. I think you might say "Good" to that. I guess I deserve to feel this way with all you've had to put up with regarding my history. Today, I am only guessing despite all I think I know.
l8r jj,
cj

Monday, November 12, 2012

#4u

How long must I really wait to see you? Will it take the whole year? I know that's what they say but I at least hope you meet me half way if not sooner. I need help and have help but even though I know I must stand on my own I'm used to crutches so it may take a while. I'll be working my ass off to gain back the strength from my fall. It's messy when you fall sometimes. Other times, there is someone there to catch you or at least someone who cares that you have fallen and is there to pick you up. I have been picked up. Sooner, sooner, sooner, with every Nebraskan second... I wait patiently, on your terms but I do not sit idle. I have plenty of work to do and so I work as I am able, finding motivation all around but I fear I have less motivation at a distance without you by my side. Hurry up and wait is part of service and I am ready to serve. How is becoming more clear and I write and I do, not always in the same order and sometimes while tired but I am growing out of my old chaotic routines, perhaps into new chaotic routines but with a clearer mind and a more focused heart I can find the subtle patterns in the chaos and see the clear choices that lay before me.
Today I love my life. I hope I won't find too much disappointment as the future unfolds. #soberCommitment

Sunday, November 11, 2012

I know what is going on and I love you for it. I have a rubber band on my finger. I like the ring and the dresses. I have work to do on my body. Let's dance...

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Lovin' Tascam right now...

http://tascam.com/product/ixz/

This product link is to a headphone jacked input device that allows you to use your phone running a multi-track application. You can use it with the iphone with Garageband but you can also use it with Android apps apparently, since the connector has a headphone jack with the microphone input as well. Not sure if that was clear but if you're familiar with that then you'll know what I'm talking about.

== added 10-23-2012
http://tascam.com/product/portastudio/

This is also really cool. A four track app, which would be an alternative to Garageband.

l8r,
cj

Friday, June 1, 2012

6-1-2012

Each day we get a chance to be an asshole or a decent person. It's our choice. I believe in a simple mantra... All choice is based in love or fear. It hasn't failed me. Test it. Tell me if there isn't elegance in this sort of simplicity. Because whether it is self-love instead of self-loathing or fear of some sort of self harbored shame or guilt or whatever versus love for another instead of disdain; any action or choice in any given situation will always be one of love or fear. You have a choice.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

nothing, oh nevermind. I forgot this thing was on. I'll be posting more cover tunes and eventually update the playlist on the A/V page. Check back. I'll be releasing an album of covers at some point too.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

My latest book...

What to write about. It's a novel. That's all I'm sure of right now. It's a difficult thing sometimes, to write fluidly and tell the story. Getting out of the way is part of finding my voice. It's easier when I can just let go so I tend to work out what I'm going to write in my head and then sit down to write it. At least that way I can look at the unwritten story and determine if it demands my time to pen the thing. Anyway, I like it so far. It's called "The Retreat" No publishing date has been set.
I had planned on releasing a book of short stories called "Words" but that has been put off indefinitely. I'll keep you posted.

Friday, March 30, 2012

The UFOs are coming


A Cover of Styx's "Come Sail Away" by Chris Johnson.

doobies for all...

A cover of the Doobie Brothers' song, "China Grove" by me, Chris Johnson. Enjoy the mp3 compression... ;)

Friday, March 2, 2012

Ah, Facebook...

So at the excitement of a friend over it, I've created a fanpage on Facebook for "CodeBase". Here's the link... http://www.facebook.com/spektrumcreations